I’m so happy today, because I received your message in Facebook and SMS. It was a surprise although I have been waiting for your message.

It was a coincidence of the two radio programs, both of them are reminding me of you. The first program talked about their reporter went to Manchester and some other cities for visiting the soccer fields. He said there is only 6 degrees centigrade. I hope you dress warm enough and won’t get cold. Take good care of yourself!

The other program is an interview to a female singer, Kelly Chen. She is going to get marry soon. The host asked her about her fiancé. You know what, his name is Alex… HAHA ^_^ The host said “ALEX” many times… and ask her how did he propose, and who he is… Anyway, it’s good to hear your name too…

Write again next time.

人有一個好特別的『構造』就是能夠做夢。有時候做到一個好夢，也有可能是惡夢；甚至你會發現在生活中的情境，竟然似曾相識，是曾經發過的一個夢。『日有所思，夜有所夢！』好像是真的！心理學家會說這叫做『潛意識』。有人說夢的成因可能是生活上的壓力太大，便會在人的夢境中發洩出來。不論如何我最近發了2個難忘的夢：(以下是夢境內容，不能用正常的邏輯思維去理解。)

夢境1：我坐著巴士要到機場，好像我需要到別的地方，可是我沒有帶任何旅遊的東西。突然間飛機境然變成了飛機，我所坐著如梳化的椅子，又不用安全帶，有些人還可以站著，但『飛機』竟能夠繼續升空，他們也沒有倒下來。

夢境1的成因：這個夢境是Alex坐飛機到英國的那一晚發生的。可能是在睡前想著他能否平安到步，也希望能夠有機會一起去旅遊。而引發這個夢。

夢境2：在夢中Joshua(在菲律賓教會的一位青年人)幫我、Ling、Sharon、Frances and Jackylnn(她們是我的中學同學)在練習一首歌，目的是在Sharon的婚禮上獻唱的，在練習其間我問大家『怎可以讓Sharon跟我們一起練習，這是她的婚禮？』

夢境2的成因：這個夢境是在Sharon婚禮前的一個星期發生的。因為工作關係不能夠出席好朋友的婚禮，雖然感到有點遺憾，還以為自己非常理解情況及不太在意，原來是對此事十分之耿耿於懷。於是盼望藉著獻唱帶給她一點的祝福。

在此祝福Sharon同阿峰：
『願神的愛時刻充滿你們和你們的家庭。珍惜神賜給你的配偶！』

給Sharon：
『你要順服丈夫，如同順服主一樣。不要為自己爭辯，要順服阿峰的決定，並要常常為他禱告，讓他能做一些正確的決定。』

給阿峰：
『你要愛Sharon，好像基督愛教會，為教會捨己。這種捨己的愛是無條件的，以對方的利益為出發，這就是Sharon要凡事順服你的原因。同時，你是家庭中的屬靈領袖，你要建立和鼓勵Sharon，讓她成為更像基督的樣式。』

With ALL my Love and Blessing,
Koo Koo

BO GO SHIP DA...

This is the first day of your UK trip. When I write this entry, you are on the way to Manchester. I am not sure why I miss you so much this time…My feeling is unlike last March you went for army training. Our relationship wasn’t as deep as right now. At the same time, my feeling also is unlike last July that I went for Mission trip in Malaysia, cause I knew I would call you as much as I can. It seems like you’re already part of my life. Even though we were apart from each other in different countries, we were still able to see each one another by MSN, or maybe I know we won’t be able to talk for the next 16 days. I hope I could go with you this time. But…
Anyway, I will write down my feeling and thoughts in these few days. So that you may read it when you have time. God Bless you…

I will work harder, hopefully I will be very busy and tired, then won’t think about you too much. ~.~

I was so nervous this morning when I gave him a call. Since I didn't see him online for a while, I am wonder how he's doing. Therefore I send him a message last night, but I didn't receive any reply. I shared with my best friend about this in this morning. She suggested me to give him a call showing my care. I was struggle because I don't know what would be his response. She encourage me for a while, then I was persuaded by her. I took the courage and gave him a call. I was shaking when the phone ring. He pick up the phone and he said Hi. I told him is me and ask him how's going...... and told him what I had prepared. I was extremely nervous. The atomsphere is so cold. I think maybe he is shock that I made this called. I also speak so fast which he doesn't have much time to give response. I am glad that he is doing fine.

What a surprise that he post some sharing on his blog yesterday and today. I didn't notice that before. If I do, I am sure I won't give him a call. I felt like why can't I wait a little longer. He will do his work on His time.

Anyway, there is a question in my heart. Is he hiding from me because of what I shared here? I hope he won't hide from me. No matter what I like to have a friend like him. Just tell me what you think, I will understand it.

2 years Anniversary!!!

I won't forget what had happened in 2 years ago. I met a person who is important to me on that day. Although in these two years our relationship from stranger to friend, from friend to courting, from courting to be friend again. I felt lucky to have him in my life; As the same time, I felt sorry for what I've hurt him. There is nothing I can do to smooth over my fault. Sometimes I thought if time can go back from the beginning, or go to the spot that I want, it would be very nice. However, I know if it is not happened, I may not know how to treasure someone like him.

Couple weeks ago, I attended a personality test seminar. I understood myself more while I was having the test. The instructor also illustrated other personality type. When he was explaining, I thought about him. Why did I think about him? I don't know, maybe I'd mentioned about him with someone, who is his best friend's fiancée. She told me about her impression to him. She said he always laughing at the end of each sentence. I agreed with her, maybe he is little bit shy to express himself. ^_^ I remembered all the pictures that I took with him, he smile and can't see his eyes. Anyway, I want to say is when the instructor analysis of other personality type. I understand more about why he reacted at the past and how my behavior was affected him. Such as, he is a thoughtful, when he decide something, he will do and carry on. He said something and meant it. He won't say anything just to impress me. It's not an easy job for him to make a move. However, I am quite different from him, I do things emotionally, I can't wait until I think completely. I give up easily. Sometimes I said something may not be really meant it. Therefore I learn to change the way of thinking and talking. I do miss him usually, but I won't let him know now, because it's not the way how he do thing. I will hide my feeling, because I don't want leading by my emotion. And break our friendship.

One time, when I knew he likes a girl from his church, I was so disappointed. I cried and asked why. Of course, I didn't let him know I am disappointed, but he may know that. Couples months later, I asked him did he have the same feeling as me? I expected he would answer me in a positive way, but it's not the case. He always mentioned put trust in God who will prepare the best for him. I understand it and I am learning too.

At this moment, I don't want to ruin the friendship, because we don't know what will happen to us. I know he will not make any move until he is clear about himself and his future. I remembered someone told me 3 years ago, he broke up with me because he could not give me any promise to take a good care of me. Because he didn't know about his career and future. I was wonder is it an excuse. But I understand now, a responsible man want to give his beloved one the best. Therefore I should wait until someone ready and say that to me. Although it seems not likely as my style, I should learn that.

In the past, I always worried that we came from the two different countries. Also our background, culture, language, personalities.......etc, are different. But now I know in God's hand there is nothing impossible. In future, I want to share the testimony with others how God leading us in our relationship.

Today I learn a personality test name "Solving People's Puzzle" I have done this test when I was training in ACTI. Today's result is quite consistence with last time. I am a high I (Influence) person. the second high is D (Dominence). However I don't have any C (conscientiousness).
I have so much things want to say, but I am really sleepy now, talk about it tomorrow!

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